I worry about my mom. She has been pretty sick for awhile now, and I thought I needed to be with her. So today with a little prodding I went and got an airline ticket to Wisconsin.
I'm not used to doing things on the spur of the moment. When I was a kid it wasn't unusual to do things like this. I remember one time when I was in high school one of the teachers asked if anybody had done anything interesting for the weekend. My casual, matter-of-fact response was "I went to Germany". It wasn't such a big deal back then. I didn't have as many responsibilities as I do now.
I have so many things I need to do, plus I'll be missing my husbands birthday and I feel this sense of guilt about leaving work for the week when I know they count on me. I am responsible for the music, and I worry about everything going smoothly while I'm away. I hate leaving them in a bind, but I guess sometimes you've got to do what you've got to do.
I need to realize that it's ok to do something on the spur of the moment. Everyone will survive without me here. They will all make do, and I'm sure everything will work out just fine.
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